1st Ultrasound Pics

Here are their 1st pictures @ 6 weeks. Sorry it has been awhile since posting them. Big difference from these to the 8 weeks. These ones are a bit clearer though. You get the idea.

2nd ultrasound

The scanning of these pics are a little wacky, so I apologize for that! I still need to get their 6 week ultrasound pics on here too. Anyways, I was originally scheduled to go in this Wednesday for an ultrasound, but I had this smidge of spotting this morning, so naturally I freaked, called the Dr's. & went in. She checked me all out, everything was good. Then, it was the ultrasound to check on the babies. They've grown so big in 2 weeks! Once I get their 6 week pics posted you will see for yourself! Both heartbeats are really good. Baby A's (really is Baby B) was 150 & Baby B's ( really baby A) was 161. Right within the normal range. On these new pics of the babies they are reversed. On our previous ultrasound, Baby B is on the left, Baby A is on the right. So, just switch the letters on these new ones & it will be straight. :) I feel relieved that they are still doing great. But I have some sadness since this was our last visit to the fertility clinic. Now I am off to my own obgyn. That is exciting, but the fertility clinic has been a huge part of my life for so long, that I think I am suffering a bit from separation anxiety!! But it is a good thing, right? I am happy, don't get me wrong, but I will miss them. They've been wonderful to Jason & I & they were the ones that got us pregnant after 4 years of trying. I am sure they are a bit relieved that I won't be around to call & pester them with every twinge I have! Now my Dr. gets to deal with that. I am paranoid, what can I do? I need to relax, that much I know. So just wanted to update. I will post their 6 week pics too. Again, sorry for the crooked pics. Oh. And the one pic that is labeled "Baby A" looks like 2 heads, but that is their yolk sac. I asked, cause I thought it had 2 heads too cause I am sorry, that is what it looks like!!

1st Ultrasound

Today was our first ultrasound at 6 weeks 1 day. I've been down in the dumps these last few days. Even though I've felt sick & not that great, I started spotting a bit. I was completely convinced that it didn't work or maybe I was loosing it. I had no cramping at all, so I didn't think that, but the spotting just got to me. Well, we go in, she checks my ovaries (they were fine), my cervix (fine), seemed like she kept stalling, so I started to get upset..... then she says, "You guys are having Twins!!" I couldn't believe what I just heard. I looked over at Jason & his eyes were watery then got VERY LARGE. He looked like a deer in headlights!! :) Poor thing. They measured right where they should. Baby A's heartbeat was 110 & Baby B's was 111. They said that was right where it should be. They each are in their own little sack or "home" And like I said before, are developing right where they should be. I go in 2 weeks for my 8 week ultrasound to make sure they keep growing & then I can start seeing my own dr. after that. I will be sad to leave that place. Our actual dr. came in to tell us congrats.... I was still in such shock still, that I know I kept saying "thank you, thank you, thank you". After years of trying & tests & poking& disappointments, it was all worth it to have this moment right now. We even saw their little hearts beating. Was amazing. I still can't believe this, but so thankful to everyone for their support & their prayers. I will keep you posted.

Blood # 3

Well, my blood work from today is 1695!! It went from 809 on Friday to 1695 today. So that is pretty good. I've run out of the progesterone shot that I have been doing every morning, so tomorrow I have to go to the Dr. for them to give it to me. Jason gets a day off! :) Then we will move onto the transition, so I won't have another shot until the 3rd of October of the new progesterone ( the one that stings like a motha' ) & I think I will only do that once a week until November 7th. That won't be so bad. Our first ultrasound will be on October 8th. I am excited, yet nervous. I hope that everything goes good with them & there are no problems. One day at a time, though, right?
I spent all of yesterday in Vancouver w/ my grandma. She is out of ICU & in her own private room. She didn't have any need for any more blood transfusions yesterday & so far today. So she is getting better. She has her appetite back & she was getting kind of feisty! She just needs to rest. She still has a long way to go still, but she is slowly improving, so that is all we can hope for now. They are trying to find a different blood-thinner to put her on, otherwise there might be more problems later on. She is a little fighter, so thank heavens for that!

# 2

Had blood work this morning to make sure my numbers from Wednesday went up. Was nervous about this one, because the day we found out we were pregnant, I got a call from my parents saying my grandmother was in the hospital & it didn't look good. She had a stroke last August & aside from her speech, she seemed to be doing o.k. Well, she began to bleed internally. I guess that can happen with the type of blood-thinner she was on since the stroke. She lost a lot of blood & honestly it didn't look good. I couldn't believe that the day I thought may never happen, the happiest day of my life turned into heartache. My grandmother is in Vancouver, Washington, which is about 2-2 1/2 hours away. We spent all day yesterday with her. She was alert but very weak. She has had 13 transfusions since being there. It is one of those catch-22 things. They found the source of her bleeding in her colon, but they are hoping it will heal on its own. Today she was doing a lot better, didn't bleed as much, but it will all depend what her blood work comes back as to what the next step is. This has been a crazy week to say the least. Our family also found out that Thomas Martin, the man that killed my sister, died on Sunday. Such a strange thing still to think that he is dead. He took a big part of my life away from me when I was 14 & I've had to live my life without her since then, but he has been alive & walking this earth the whole time. For me, it is something that will take some getting used too. Hopefully this will help bring some closure to my family after all this time.
Back to my blood work today. Wednesday was 401. Today it was 809!! It doubled! That is a great sign. So I started yet ANOTHER shot in the butt. I will say this, I HATE THIS ONE. It is progesterone in sesame oil. Lets just say that I am STILL feeling it in my cheek & it has been about an hour! Not fun. But all for a good cause. I will still do the same progesterone in oil like I have been doing...& in a few days I will do the other one. It was kinda cool, cause the little schedule she gave me for these shots today said "Days to begin progesterone after POSITIVE pregnancy results!" Yes!! I am still getting used to it. Will take some time to let it sink in. Thankfully my grandmother was alert & I could show her the pictures of them from the transfer & tell her she was to a great-grandma. I will never forget how big her eyes got & she cried. I hope this will give her something to keep fighting for. I am going to head off to bed, I am TIRED! And I am heading down to Vancouver again tomorrow morning to spend the day with her. I have another appointment on Sunday morning, so I will post the results then!!

The news

Today was my beta. I am PREGNANT!!! Can you freakin' believe it? My # is 401, so they said it was excellent numbers. I go in on friday morning to make sure my #'s keep going up. I am in shock still. Just got off the phone with Jason, he is at work, & they are short staffed, so I think he is in shock like me. He kept telling me congrats!! Poor thing. I really thought this was going to come back negative since I had a little bit of spotting yesterday..... I just can't believe this at all. I've gone through all of these fertility treatments for a reason, but after so many negatives, you get used to it after awhile I suppose. So when you hear something different, it puts you into shock or something. Such a weird place to be in. But a great one!!
Just called my parents, my mom is at work, but I talked to my dad. I told him that he was going to be a grandpa & his reply was "I am too young & handsome to be a grandpa". I know he said this to get me to stop weeping & get me to laugh. And it worked to some degree..... Now I can't wait for my mom to get off of work later & she finds out. You will probably hear her screaming from Montana!! :) She has waited a long time for this & I've wanted to tell her she was going to be a grandma for a long time too.....
Keep your fingers crossed that my #'s keep going up, & that they are healthy. And Christia, I know u read this so I will tell u that you've been such a wonderful friend to me. Always supportive & understanding. You truly are a wonderful person with a great big heart. You are far away, but I am sending u a little hug for always listening to me blab!!

Transfer

Yesterdays transfer went really well. The embryologist told us that the 2 we were transferring were grade A (meaning they are the best!) They will be freezing 5 others, possibly 1 more that are all grade A!! These are the pictures of our day 5 blastocyst that were transferred. :) The whole procedure itself was painless. Much easier than the those IUI's I did in the past. I would cramp up so bad during those. During an IVF transfer, your bladder has to be super full in order for them to get the best image on the ultrasound. We watched as the embryologist sucked them both in the transfer tube on a big screen, then they were brought in, & our re put them in. They had marked where my uterine lining was (which looked good still too) & you could actually see the catheter go in, then these 2 very small things come out. I lost it then. Was the most amazing thing in the world to see. Then it was all done. Just had to lay there for 20 minutes then off we went. I slept part of the day & just resting again today. In 10 days we will know if it worked. They said that there is a 50% chance of twins (Jason freaked a bit on that one) & a 70% chance at pregnancy. So we got some odds on our side, but it is still up in the air. They said I had a perfect IVF cycle, so that makes me feel good..... Now we just have to wait!!