Monday, July 28, 2008
Day 2 & 3
Yesterday was a nightmare. Was scheduled for an 8:15 am appointment for day 2 bloodwork. I made it downtown fine, but they were having some sort of "fun run" or something, so every block was closed. I was freaking out cause I was lost & had no where to park. I was an emotional wreck. I finally gave up, called the dr. & asked if I could come in on day 3. Thankfully it was ok. My appointment was at 9:45 this morning, but I got there at 9. I was hoping they would let me sit in the waiting room for awhile, but nope, they called me right back, & a minute later I was done. My appointment was so quick that I didn't even get charged for my parking! Too bad all my appointments weren't like that! Seems crazy to drive all that way for bloodwork, but it is all for a good cause I suppose. So, since I had the bloodwork done today, I began the birthcontrol. Everything is falling into place now it seems. Friday I go in for my S.I.S test. A bit nervous about that. You know it must be uncomfortable if they require you to take an ibeprofen a half hour before. Just hope I will be ok enough to get back to work without anyone knowing. Can't believe how fast this is all going. Unreal. Now all that is left is to sign up for our shots class. Hopefully we can do it while Jason is on vacation in the beginning of August. I've heard it is a lot of info, so we shall see.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
The Beginning
I guess I always new that there was something wrong with me. Of course when I was younger, the fact that my period would show once every 3 months or so was something I didn't mind. Others were actually jealous that they didn't have messed up cycles like me. If I knew then what I know now, I would've done something about it a lot sooner. From the time I was little, I knew I wanted to be a mom. My favorite thing to play was "house". Never in a million years would I have guessed it would take a village to make it happen for me.
Shortly after Jason & I were married, I wanted kids. My gyno put me on birth control for about a year thinking it would regulate my cycles. After the year was up, he put me on Clomid. That did nothing. I tried this 3 or 4 months, finally we said we need to see a specialist. We were referred to the Gyft Clinic in Tacoma. I remember shaking terribly before our first appointment. I just expected to walk in, they would say, "Nope, not going to happen" & out we would be. Of course that isn't what happend. They did another few cycles of Clomid, but monitored me more closely. When that failed it was onto the IUI's with Clomid. I was terrified the first time. But I was so hopeful. I was convinced it worked. Then my period showed. I would do another 2 IUI's there & also a laproscopic surgery. After receiving results that made no sense to me, & I am no doctor, we decided to get a second opinion. So off to Seattle Reproductive Medicine. There, the doctor agreed that the treatment the other doctor wanted to do wasn't necessary. We did one more IUI there. We left that office because of insurance reasons. We have infertility coverage but they wouldn't bill our insurance. Was a complete waste. Now we are at Pacific Northwest Fertility. I know that I've gone through all of this for a reason, but sometimes I wish we would've just started there. They are wonderful people & I actually feel like they are going to help us. And although I expressed my desire to move onto something other than IUI's, our doctor felt it had been a timing issue in the past. So, that led to 3 more IUI's. If you've done your math right or if I have for that matter, that is 7 IUI's all together. All failed. There is all this build up before & then just horrible feeling afterwords when you are told it didn't work. Now we are onto IVF. And even though in the beginning of all this ttc stuff, I always said there was no way I was doing IVF, after everything I've been put through, I can do this. Yes, I freaked out when I received my very large box full of meds & shots. And yes, the thought of giving myself shots makes me wanna cringe. I am ready for this. The hard part of this whole process is the "unknown" & I pray this is it for us. Other aspects in my life have come pretty easily to me, so if this is what I will have to fight for, to work hard for, than that is what I will do.
Shortly after Jason & I were married, I wanted kids. My gyno put me on birth control for about a year thinking it would regulate my cycles. After the year was up, he put me on Clomid. That did nothing. I tried this 3 or 4 months, finally we said we need to see a specialist. We were referred to the Gyft Clinic in Tacoma. I remember shaking terribly before our first appointment. I just expected to walk in, they would say, "Nope, not going to happen" & out we would be. Of course that isn't what happend. They did another few cycles of Clomid, but monitored me more closely. When that failed it was onto the IUI's with Clomid. I was terrified the first time. But I was so hopeful. I was convinced it worked. Then my period showed. I would do another 2 IUI's there & also a laproscopic surgery. After receiving results that made no sense to me, & I am no doctor, we decided to get a second opinion. So off to Seattle Reproductive Medicine. There, the doctor agreed that the treatment the other doctor wanted to do wasn't necessary. We did one more IUI there. We left that office because of insurance reasons. We have infertility coverage but they wouldn't bill our insurance. Was a complete waste. Now we are at Pacific Northwest Fertility. I know that I've gone through all of this for a reason, but sometimes I wish we would've just started there. They are wonderful people & I actually feel like they are going to help us. And although I expressed my desire to move onto something other than IUI's, our doctor felt it had been a timing issue in the past. So, that led to 3 more IUI's. If you've done your math right or if I have for that matter, that is 7 IUI's all together. All failed. There is all this build up before & then just horrible feeling afterwords when you are told it didn't work. Now we are onto IVF. And even though in the beginning of all this ttc stuff, I always said there was no way I was doing IVF, after everything I've been put through, I can do this. Yes, I freaked out when I received my very large box full of meds & shots. And yes, the thought of giving myself shots makes me wanna cringe. I am ready for this. The hard part of this whole process is the "unknown" & I pray this is it for us. Other aspects in my life have come pretty easily to me, so if this is what I will have to fight for, to work hard for, than that is what I will do.
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